Yoda would say, "Chicken, you are!"
I have realized that that statement is very true! I am not brave or courageous. Instead, I am a great avoider and a giant chicken.
I hate going to see my Daddy where he now lives. Almost exactly a year ago, Daddy was placed in an assisted living facility because of his progressing Alzheimer's. He is gentle and kind and very easy to be with. But I find that as I leave his new home, I am extremely sad and can't seem to stop myself from crying...every time...even a year later.
It's not really about me. I know this. It is about all the things Daddy has done over the years to be the best dad ever. He sacrificed. He got out of himself to do the best things for our family. He doted on me and pretty much gave me everything I have ever wanted. He loved me dearly and I have never questioned that. When all other things in my life have been in upheaval, the fact that Daddy loved me never was. He was true blue. Steady Eddy. Gentle giant of a man.
I have much maturing to do in this area; to live my life as he has...sacrificially, outside of myself for the betterment of my family, wholly devoted to others.