It was the best of times. It was the worst of times. .... The beginning to a great book, but also, it seems, like the story of my mind right now. I feel divided. I feel split in two.
With our move next summer to Italy, we are beginning to fill out paperwork, pay for passports, look at housing online, sell our stuff, etc. We are in the best of times....the time of anticipation. The time of expectation. The time when anything can still happen. The time we see God working so clearly to guide our steps in this way. We are in the worst of times....the time of mess. The time of busy-ness beyond our normal. The time of anxiety and fear of the unknown.
But, while we are preparing for our move, we are still actually living here. We are involved in life, activities, organizations. We are servers, leaders, and participaters. We are in the best of times...the time of support. The time of encouragers. The time of being involved in what God has led us to. We are in the worst of times....the time of being too busy with the future to adequately give resources to the now. The time of impending good-byes. The time of not being either here or there.
We are split minded, which is how it always is before a move. It's a great place to be. It's a difficult place to be. But it's where God has us right now and that is an amazing place!