Friday, April 17, 2009

Is It Just Me?

I wonder about the concept of you? I love the idea and I love being the recipient of it...both by God and others with whom I live and work. I try to extend grace to others. I don't always do so well with that. Why is that?

Why is it that we can extend grace to people we don't even know or care about yet have trouble extending grace to those closest to us?

I am humbled when I receive it from others, which is often from some and never from others. Why is that?

I am pondering life at the moment and rambling a bit because I am confused. Why is it the harder I try, the more I seem to fail? Am I being tested by God...would I be passing or failing if I am being tested? Am I being sinful? Am I the innocent dragged into someone else's sin? Is God trying to tell me something? Am I not listening?

It happens a lot these days....I am going along happily, minding my own business, loving my husband and kids, trying to serve others...when BAM! something happens to plunge me into this line of questioning. What did I do this time? Did I say something? Did I not say something? Why can everyone else seem to be able to do and say things and I get caught either doing the wrong thing or not doing the right thing? How can I try so hard and still fall short?

These are the questions I get to try to ponder as I go to bed. Probably won't sleep much tonight...Am I the only one this happens to?

1 comment:

Gregg Stutts said...

I think humility, which your questions exhibit, is a greater marker of maturity than not failing.