Saturday, March 21, 2009

Isn't She Lovely?

I am having a love-hate, mostly hate most days, relationship with my weight. I just came back from Weight Watchers where I lost a pound....ok, I love that part. But last week I gained a considerable amount...I hate that part.

I waffle (no food pun intended) between not caring about my weight and being borderline obsessed with it.

In the middle of all of this stuff, I am also going through the Beth Moore study of Esther. I am in the second week where Esther, who is already beautiful and lovely in form (so says the Bible), yet she had to go through 12 months of beauty treatments. 12 months of beauty treatments? She was already lovely!!

What do I do with that information? What does that mean for me? The answer, I think, is that to the world, I will never be lovely enough. So I have to find my "enough" in other places...myself, my friends, my husband, my family, and most of all...my God!

I think I will always be a bit pulled by the world with its view of beauty and loveliness, but as I get older, my prayer is that I will be more and more pulled by the "enough" of God.

3 comments:

Melissa Williams said...

I agree with you completely. That Esther Bible Study is AMAZING!!! We have 1 more week to go here and I'm so sad it is ending. I have learned so much...it's simply amazing! And by the way, I think you're beautiful just like you are...I wouldn't change a thing!

Nathan, Shelly & Kaleigh said...

I have the opposite issue - I don't care enough! I think I went through enough agonizing over my appearance in high school to last me a lifetime. It is very easy to take a good thing - such as being healthy - to extremes. And I also think you look great!:)

Anonymous said...

Personally-I find you more attractive then MOST women.
You are sweet and cute and a fantastic mother~